Fragments

Deepening cracks,

Scattered bits of faith,

Honour in shreds,

Trust lying broken into pieces,

too many for my hands to hold...

I writhed in pain

as my heart broke

Into a million fragments...

My whole existence twisted

into nothingness...

My life sucked out of my being.

I'm an empty shell now.

Hollow...

No thoughts, no dreams, no feelings...

A blank space.

A vacuum.

I look at the mess.

that used to be ME-

whole...,

Wondering where I lost myself

Trying to find the pieces of my puzzle

Trying to glue it together....

So much for my efforts

Obviously not enough....

Too many pieces,

torn, broken, shattered....

Scattered all over...

I'm tired of putting myself

back together

Only to be broken every time...

I'm tired of searching for

the lost 'me' I can't find....

I'm tired of trying so hard....

to be whole again;

Knowing that I can't ....

I look at the scattered fragments

Of my pride, my confidence, my worth,

That lie crushed under the cruel feet of fate...

I watch helplessly

I'm too late.....

I lie in agony as I break further

Only fragments remain now

as I break into pieces and become 'nothing'.....